Pachieness

A Proper Update?

2009-04-01T01:57:00.002+08:00

Alright alright. Quit your mumblings and stuff. I'm finally updating. (Yes, for a change, much less at 2am in the morning.)

So people have been wondering what have I been doing the past 3 months. So I'll give you a brief overview of what has happened before I do a soliloquy on what utter garbage I feel at the moment.

You dance and shake the hurt... Dance... Boogie wonderland...

The first 3 months had been total disaster. Especially in February. It's just a total let down. Sure I may be currently taking Business and Human Resource Management. But yeah, if you want to talk about administration and all sorts of other works and quirks behind the school. You don't wana know. Moreover, I swear, the results are glitched. Pfft.

It's our problem free, philosophy... Hakuna Matata...

People, stop asking when will i get attached to him. It's annoying.

All I have to do... is dream...

Sure. I would dream. Dream that salvation falls upon the choir... Hohoho... Not that I have anything bad to say (on here that is, not that I can be sued for defamation, because what I say is true, but hey, it's good to be careful).

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance...

Just go along with the music. Music life is fine. Acappuccino's doing great, though Gerald's in OCS. The female group's doing fine too. Whee. Just kindda expanded to sextet, if not, at least a quintet. Would be going for acachamps this year. Wonder how we'll fare.

You call me up... Because you know I'll be there...

As much as I've disappeared because I've been busy... You know I'm always available. Just drop me a sms or call. =D I'll reply u! If i'm not wallowing in self-pity.

Stand by me... Nobody knows... The way it's gonna be...

I'm just feeling rotten these days. I'm aching to own a device of my own of which I can call mine *inserts the line from All Saint's Pure Shores - a piece of something to call mine* Haha. Really. I just need to buy a gadget of my own and own it and claim it's MINE MINE ALL MINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... It feels good laying a claim on something. So Lifu was nice, and decide to contract this: 4 pkts of tissue papers for 1 deck of new tarot cards. Cool huh? So now I bought a new deck of tarot cards! MINEEEEEEEEEEEE ALL MINEEEEEEEEEEE... somewhat. o.o i haven't gotten it into my hands yet...

Lonely... I am so lonely... I've got nobody... To call my own......

Not sure if it's a "nobody" or a "nothing"...

MIA-ed?

2009-03-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hi all!

Sorry that i've been MIA for quite a while...

So many things have happened... (more bad than good, contrary to popular belief that I've gotten attached without informing anybody. Sorry but no, i'm still unattached and don't even bother wondering why.)

I've gone AWOL for quite a period of time, due to personal problems as well as due to the lack of a laptop (because it gave me a BSoD problem)

Currently, I'm watching Charmed albeit being extremely tired dealing with problems and failures that were heaped on me as well as lack of sleep. LOL...

No worries, I'm alright. Thanks to support and love from everyone =)

disappointment

2009-03-09T00:40:00.001+08:00

disappointment is a huge understatement

I've done 84 out of the 132 stupid things.

2009-02-16T04:30:00.002+08:00

Do this and repost it with the title:
I've done --- out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette (almost. crap.)
() Smoked A Cigar
(X) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
(X) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
(X) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(X) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 9

Level 5
() Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 10

Level 6
(X) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
() Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 11

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers (Medicine)
(X) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
() Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 14

Level 8
(X) Had A Tea Party
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding (offroading)
(X) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 18

Level 9
() Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
() Gone Sledging
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 21

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 23

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
() Been Robbed / Vandalized
(X) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 26

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
(X) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 28

Level 13
() Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
() Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 29

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
(X) Witnessed A Crime
(X) Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(X) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 34

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(X) Been Lost
(X) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(X) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 39

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 44

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made a Prank Phone Call
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(X) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 48

Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 51

Level 19
(X) Crashed A Party
(X) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(X) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(X) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR:55

Level 20
(X) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
() Swore at the teacher, in front of them
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 56

Level 22
(X) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 59

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(X) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 62

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
() Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been in a tree house.
(X) Been scared to watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 64

Level 25
(X) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 65

Level 26
(X) Played Chicken
(X) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 69

Level 27
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
() Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 71

Level 28
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
() Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(X) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
(X) French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
(X) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X)Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 76

Level 29
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
() Had A Cavity
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 79

Level 31
(X) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 84

Level 32
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
() Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

SO FAR: 84
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hi people...

2009-02-12T04:53:00.003+08:00

Hiya... I know it's late. Nearly 5am in the morning (at least, when I started blogging it's 4:53am)...

Start of the year hasn't exactly been pleasant. Many things happened through the new year, be it in the norm calendar or the lunar calendar. Too many things happened.

Personally, I'm struggling with acceptance, identity crisis, displacement/replacement, insecurities on top of many other issues.

I realised that penning down that part of my life into a 6 page essay and telling several individuals at the same time, allows psychological acceptance more easily than verbal counselling with people. Perhaps, as usual, I tend to phrase things better when I type or write as opposed to verbal exchanges. Have never ever been one who's good at speaking with someone. It's different compared to memorizing a script and regurgitating or memorizing and singing the lyrics of the song or playing the song from memory. Wait. All those 3 relates to memory work. To think I have bad memory. Probably it's more of selective memory. All those in agreement, say (or tag) aye.

Many have asked why have I not been attending acappuccino pracs. Actually not many have asked, it's just the same old people who know that I'm not that irresponsible to disappear without a trace. But there are just quite a number of things that I have to deal with personally... And now that he wants Gerald to take over some duties for the quartet... To be honest, I feel worst. It makes me feel as if, I really can't do anything. =/ I mean, yes, it's out of good will that he's trying to get Gerald to help out. But... Really. It does make me feel that, I'm just not up to it and that things really do go wrong because it's my fault coz I totally suck.

Reverse psychology never does work on me. Only at certain times, it does. And only at limited times.

Never mind. Hope after these 11 mins, I'll probably be able to sleep...

bored

2009-02-08T13:39:00.002+08:00

Rules:
Use the FIRST letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Fanella Chan

2. A four Letter Word: Frog

3. A boy's Name: Francis

4. A girl's Name: Fiona

5. An occupation: Fishmonger

6. A color: Fuchsia

7. Something you'll wear: Flip-flops

9. A food: Fish nuggets

10. Something found in the bathroom: Foam

11. A place: France

12. A reason for being late: Family was nagging

13. Something you'd shout: Fuck (well i do swear when extremely agitated. so.. *shrughs*)

14. A movie title: Free Willy!

15. Something you drink: Fruit juice

16. A musical group: Fort Minor

17. An animal: Ferret

18. A street name: Fleet Street (HAH!)

19. A type of car: Ford

20. The title of a song: For the beauty of the earth (that came to mind. *shrughs*)

is this what I really wanted?

2009-01-27T10:33:00.002+08:00

is this what i really wanted?
it must have been naive of me to think that things wouldn't change after my outburst.
really, how naive of me.
communication has gone down (wasn't that my purpose?)
snugs have gone down (which i miss)
now sitting here thinking about things.
is this really what i wanted?
i tried to retract the damage done. but as people said, what's done is done.
and now i'm hurting myself more than i wanted to be hurt. as much as i retracted to stop the hurt, the initial damage is already done.
i'm such an idiot. as always.
totally.
and so here i am giving the answer to the question, "is this really what i wanted?"

Happy? Pissed? Happy? Pissed? Oh make up your mind woman!

2009-01-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

Hey!!!!

Sorry to people who have been trying to read my posts (actually nobody), only to see no updates (which... don't think people really care!)... Been real busy lately (okay. so i'm monologue-ing to myself. either that or i'm being schizo)

Had 2 tests for HRM1 =) 20/20 and 19/20 (considering that the 2nd test, i didn't study... and was watching anime and anime the whole weekend. LOL) Pretty happy with what i got =)

HOWEVER!!!!!!!!!!!! *inserts explicit mutterings and cursings* some woman had to defame me because i had such high marks. *rolls eyes* so much for not having experience. i'll shove my resume and experience down her throat. rawr. >=( *tempted to sue for defamation* but i'm nice. very nice. i'll just ignore her. and continue to ignore her.

Darling dearest Davida snapped at that ogre (changed her name upon the request of my darling dearest Ftan) several times today. Rawr!! And darling dearest Davida lent me her NDS =D Yay!!!!! Finished Prologue & Chapt 1 of Revenant Wings =D Fun.... =D... Maybe I should get NDS after all. hohoho... erm. hmm... LOL

Seminar was good too. Though have a feeling that, the people I interacted with, still has no idea what Acappuccino is about. HAHAHAHA... Oh well... *shrughs* hahaha...

...

2009-01-11T21:24:00.001+08:00

i quote:

“I disagree. That’s not all it is. I watched you two together. You move together, it’s like you’re in tune with what the other needs or feelings. You guys moved like you were one. That kind of chemistry only happens when two people are meant for each other.”

...

2009-01-01T18:02:00.001+08:00

> 37 degrees

you believe in"loving with eyes closed and with a heart open" thus you r crazy unconditional lover

anyway, i shd start disappearing. new year resolution 2009: to disappear from the lives of certain people.

Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

2008-12-29T12:35:00.002+08:00

Hi all!

I was just remembering I was singing this 12 days of Christmas (pachie version), to Sticky (aka Stanley) the other day. Somewhere along the lines were and a gigantic yellow big pooh bear. HAHAHA...

Which I got it from Seok. Love love. Lazy to take pics. Though I'm supposed to like webcam and show Derrick the big pooh... and all my pooh goodies

Had another pooh beanie plushie thing from Fiona.. absolute cuteness =D good as armrest for typing actually. Comfortable. Haha..

Anyway, dinner was good. Absolutely love. Loved the ham. (and i wonder where's the remainder of the ham =( )

Last night was... well... erm... hahaha. okay... erm... okay la. Learnt Soleram. Just that note tuning for E and F has problem (as always. so irritating)... I don't know why. Derrick said it's coz it's my vocal bridge? But what he noted on the paper, the bridge = different? *blinks*

Anyway, my range is shifting lower. OMG. LOL. Don't know if it's a good thing or not. Probably is i guess.

I'm so tired. Gonna sleep more.

exhaustion

2008-12-22T00:16:00.003+08:00

no, not talking about physical exhaustion. a person doesn't just comprise of their physical body. they are also comprised of their mental & psychological "body" coupled with emotional "body".

i'm just psychologically and emotionally tired. somewhat, i think i harbour two-selves. those who really know me long enough, knows that at times, i have pachie and fanella talking within me at times. one, who roleplays the angel, the other who roleplays the devil. i think it's occured in the same way as how it did with Fumika in Shigofumi. (i.e. D.I.D... the cause is somewhat similar too)

pachie's like fumi... fanella's the mika... if u take away pachie, all you have is this bitchy hot-tempered depressed fanella... maybe... that's good having pachie around... but pachie's this.... whiney always smiley person... that's somewhat irritating... okay. not somewhat... very...

and beneath it all... i'm just one selfish prat... i wana demand for things to go right for me. just once. go right for me...

i tell u... most likely in 2009... acappuccino would most likely have to find another alto... and most likely i'll end up relinquishing my "hold" on the choir...

and most likely i'll either not be around, or just go on anti-depressants...

i'm just probably breaking down... no idea.... just getting more broken....

k... before i get even more depressed... i'll just go off and stop blogging...

oh... yeah... lifu's back from hk

Michael has put on 1.5kg. says (2:31 AM):
There was a really sad story on Yahoo! (http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20081216/od_uk_nm/oukoe_uk_japan_party_odd;_ylt=Aqap8oZxBSeEW0H8j8l5Zl7tiBIF) yesterday about a Japanese man who died because of a freak accident at his retirement party. He worked hard until age 60, but when his colleagues threw him in the air as celebration, nobody caught him on his way down. As a result, the man damaged his neck and back bone and lived the last 10 months of his life completely paralyzed. The wife is filing a gross negligence claim against the 40 coworkers who were there at the incident.
pachie - emotional & psychological exhaustion... says (2:31 AM):
O.o omg....
poor guy
Michael has put on 1.5kg. says (2:32 AM):
pple are assholesw
wanna be part of the fun
dun wan responsibility
no one catch him
pachie - emotional & psychological exhaustion... says (2:32 AM):
basket
Michael has put on 1.5kg. says (2:32 AM):
they deserve to be sued la

pooh drawings rake in moolah!!!

2008-12-21T13:27:00.002+08:00

here

see how much pooh drawings rake in? pooh =) love. pooh.

under the sea~ subarashii~

2008-12-12T19:21:00.002+08:00

and ofc, i would love to do it a cappella ver with the choir/acappuccino

Women~

2008-12-10T18:49:00.002+08:00

Ah. This is what i got from reading Nive's post on facebook. =) Interesting stuff really.

"Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.”

Females' multiplication rule, no?

Just had a nights out with my girls last night. Oh, damn. Conversation was hilarious. Memory creation again. And ofc, another pile up of tales we could tell the kids of both Ji & Fung. Both of them are starting to think of marrying and having kids and stuff... While both Fiona & I will continue to enjoy singlehood =) I don't think i'll end up marrying anyway. Hahaha.

Too bad I didn't take any pictures of what we had for dinner last night. But in anycase, we ate at Ji's restaurant, Haebok's Korean Restaurant. Now located at Furama Hotel, Chinatown, on the 3rd floor next to the lift.

Food's good. Atmostphere's good. To top it off with an a cappella ver of Happy Birthday and Cookies' & Cream Swensen's birthday cake.

Just finished watching Accuracy of Death too. Good show. =)

handwriting analysis...

2008-12-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

this is like... almost... 95 - 99% true. lol.... okay. maybe 99.5% even... hahaha...

Welcome Fanella Chan, here is your handwriting analysis.

Fanella uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Fanella does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Fanella will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Fanella is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Fanella doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Fanella will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Fanella believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Fanella is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Diplomacy is one of Fanella's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Fanella can disagree without being disagreeable.

In reference to Fanella's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Fanella slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Fanella can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Fanella's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Fanella that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Fanella also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Fanella is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Fanella's self-concept is artificially low. Fanella will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Fanella to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Fanella is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Fanella is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Fanella has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Fanella is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

Something is incomplete in Fanella's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Fanella's sexual needs.

Fanella exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Fanella allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Fanella has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Fanella has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. Fanella fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, then Fanella has a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life.

The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past. Fanella seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action.

Fanella seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries. It will be easy to work with Fanella on a team, because Fanella will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over Fanella if she is not careful.

OMG OMG OMG

2008-12-02T03:38:00.001+08:00

OMG OMG OMG

*spasms*

...

2008-11-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

I'm kicking myself pretty hard. I just passed up a chance to get a new laptop.

I'm sure people will react in such a way "huh???????? why?????" which was what I had from both Lifu & Derrick.

Simple reason: I can't even pay 10% of it. What more 50%?

Why? That one, I don't need to answer. Unless really prodded. I don't want people to feel guilty. It's my own decisions, my own choices. Hence, I'll just kick myself over and over again. Enough said.

Threw away my own chances... Oh well...

Opportunity cost.

Embarking on a new journey...

2008-11-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Hi all!

Exams are over, for both myself and my girls. =) Yay. This calls for a heartfelt celebration. Partay partay partay! Haha.

As we wrap up this part of the journey, we embark on another. They'll have a break before going on to their 2nd sem, while I'll start on my new class in Jan in SHRI. Sadly, because of module clashes with my dad's classes, I'll only be able to graduate in May 2010. Which kindda disrupts my 5 year plans. Doesn't matter. 2010 grad, 2010 start degree. The most if intake only starts later part of the year, then june onwards find a temp job for a couple of months and earn some cash to feed myself.

Speaking about cash, that reminds me of certain things. I should cut down loans. Haha... Either that or impose compound interest. Interesting eh? Maybe. But i'm not that evil. Haha.

Alright. Going off, gonna prep for bed. Prac tomorrow. Yippie. =)

another wishlist

2008-11-11T01:35:00.003+08:00

posting another wishlist of things i will never receive or never get. or will never end up buying for myself, coz that just doesn't happen. and this is in no particular order anyway

1) i want a felicia blue psp
2) i want an hp tx 2088
3) i want a SE xperia 1
4) i want an ipod classic 120gb
5) i want to go disneyland
6) i wana get the whole belgariad & mallorean & dreamers series + belgarath
7) i wana get a new bookshelf, a proper one btw.
8) i wana get a stagea custom

that's all i can think of atm. amongst my list of many many things.

maybe i should try that hypnotherapy thing that lifu asked me to try.

Self indulgence

2008-11-08T12:22:00.002+08:00

Hey all =)

Currently in the middle of exams at the moment. In anycase, can't wait for sushi next week. =) Yum yum. Hungry hippo! Haha. Okay, wrong depiction but still. Sushi and snuggles. What more? I'm a happy person. =)

That would satisfy my cravings of okonomiyaki, fried hotate, chawanmushi, potato korokke. Haha. Hungry.

Just finish watching Detective Conan: Full Score of Fear. I envy the singers/musicians with perfect pitch. Although I can sense variance in pitch, but I still can't name the notes exactly to the corresponding notes in scale. Haha. Fail. But oh well... Not to mention, the movie actually covers certain other aspects of movies. Good stuff.

And another reason for me to oogle at Shinichi (FYI, Kudo Shinichi = Detective Conan). He can play the violin (okay, not much of being able to play the violin). Has perfect pitch. A damn intelligent guy who can make damn good deductions. A world apart from guys who constantly depend on false assumptions. Hahaha. =) <3 Shinichi. Haha.

The Gospellers - Hitori

2008-11-04T23:22:00.001+08:00

The translation:

I haven't said "I love you" lately
Because I've truly begun to love you
There is a small light of the future in your eyes
It's painful and lovely, I take it in

I promised you only one thing
That we wouldn't be apart again
I walk on for one person only
So that you won't have to hear
Another sad song again

This is a wonderful feeling
You, who have followed your other dreams
Are by my side now
You didn't trust me in March
Tears hurriedly overflowed
You began to forgive me in May
The feelings dissolved into the summer

I promised you only one thing
That we wouldn't be apart again
I walk on for one person only
So that you won't have to hear
Another sad song again

I fell in love with you before, but now
You're a completely different person
This quietly, and with this much passion
I love you

I promised you only one thing
That we wouldn't be apart again
I walk on for one person only
So that you won't have to hear
Another sad song again

Oyster boy; clamshell girl?

2008-11-02T01:56:00.003+08:00

Blogging this offline gonna post it when DSL gets up again.

Tim Burton's Oyster Boy made me think of myself as Clamshell Girl. Haha. Not much of storyline plot. But more of the literal meaning.

Looking at all the problems and times I've been running to people and having them cheer me up. I think I should stop depending much on them anymore. I feel bad, each time I'm put down by certain people, I have to run to certain individuals, e.g. ftan, ji & pooh bear for emotional support. especially the latter for snug snugs... Seriously, if i were to be in their shoes, I think they're probably sick and tired of hearing me going through the same thing over and over again.

Natra did ever tell me I'm probably the strongest girl she knows. I don't know really. Apart from that strong independent exterior facade that I put on, I'm really quite a dependent person. I like depending on people that I'm very close to. Too dependent probably I think. Not only dependent. I'm sticky too. I stick a lot to my close friends. Irritating right? I guess. Although people say they don't mind. I think that's because they're just trying to be nice to me...

Don't know. Maybe i should clam up after all to save others the trouble of having to deal with me. Don't you agree? Yeah.

cute

2008-10-30T01:44:00.001+08:00

pachie, pachie the pooh bear!

2008-10-29T02:28:00.001+08:00

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

Don't you bring me down today...

2008-10-29T00:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a very bad day. But doesn't matter. In anycase, dad's practicing double standards it seems. Doesn't matter as long as he doesn't pull out from actually agreeing to take my Bach @ Curtin/Loughborough. And well, it just means i'll be having a PS3 anyway. Since he bought the original Assassin's Creed for fei zai already.

Whatever it is, as long as i can still go on with my Bach Deg plans, I'm happy.

Importance of trust...

2008-10-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

This song pretty much sums up what I've been feeling towards a particular person... Ice queen exterior needed, no? Don't know. I just care too much about others for my own good. Forgive, forgiven, forgave. But yet, still... Oh well. Anyway, for your viewing pleasure. This song kindda struck me while I was watching HSM2 while at my gran's just now.

lol?

2008-10-27T00:19:00.001+08:00

Derrick asked me to change blog address for a while, but why should I? It's my blog. Why should I just change it to facilitate someone's decision? Ofc, I'll leave the name of the someone unknown.

In anycase, go look at this: http://aspirin92.files.wordpress.com/2008/10/aaeu6.gif <--- This is hilarious. For people who still remember their ww2 history, it's a hilarious way of putting it. =)

And off i go again. Xperia's out for viewing tomorrow apparently =)

/ignore? ignore? blocked?!?!

2008-10-25T01:33:00.003+08:00

hohoho. merry christmas. no wait. christmas is still 2 months away. i'm just 2 months early.... but no harm getting in the mood first right? haha

anyway, as for the topic today "/ignore? ignore? blocked?!?!" is due to the realisation of the noticeable amount of people on my blocked list. ofc, those people, i blocked for a reason. 1) plain annoying 2) cannot get along with at all and don't see the need to keep in contact nor even try to get along with and 3) just simply plain annoying. 4) did i mention annoying again?

i will not state who's being blocked or not. in anycase, people who know me well enough should know who are the people i've blocked. lol....

and ofc, this is excluding the list of people i've left behind since 2005. LOL... that's another huge list of people that i don't want to keep in contact with. but ofc, the past keeps catching up and biting myself in the ass... that's bad. think sooner or later i'll have too many bite marks on my ass. =( okay. bad image.

just another 1 week odd, and i'll be sitting for exams. should i say, this is just another 'deja vu'. oh speaking of deja vus, i had this dream last night! it involves a damn good kisser who is so darn good looking and is an ang moh, with a damn nice body. ofc, it's just a dream. damn too bad, i can't do a screenshot of dreams. hoho. and seok says it's because i'm sexually frustrated, and it's a good thing that we women don't have anything to show the whole world we're in sexual need. or so she says. LOL.

oh well. gonna sleep. nitez =)

^^

2008-10-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

Rajaton's album: Rajaton sings ABBA with Lahti Symphonic Orchestra, just made my day, no matter how tired I was.

It's that good. =) Really. Haha... Falling in love with "Chiquitita" all over again. =)

Teamwork

2008-10-16T20:25:00.003+08:00

"When I was young, I joined the choir. You can't really tell, right? Choir is not all about just singing well. First, you have to learn the song. Then you need to practice each session. By the way, I am a tenor. You need to listen to each part when practicing with the whole group in order to have an image of what it sounds like as a whole. Then you must be in sync with the conductor. It's really challenging. But really, the flight industry is really similar. The airport is not all just about the controls. You always have to be aware of what's going on. What do people need, and what to do when a situation changes. Of course, you also need each and every cabin attendant's knowledge and mutual cooperation. When everyone sings together, the harmony will be beautiful. It will be good if i can hear all of you sing together." - Captain Sakurada from Attention Please.

woke up, reply, sleep, repeat, study, sleep

2008-10-16T10:43:00.002+08:00

Told you it was all “used to be”
Never listened, never did
Blinded by what you think would be
Latching on, suffocating me

Save me from hell
Let me get away
Let me just walk away from you
Save ourselves from misery

Chorus:
You’re being
Bounded by your insecurities
Holding on to what was never there
Hanging by a thread

You’re being
Bounded by your fears and worries
Thinking what you thought was true
Hanging by a thread

Feelings deep inside
Screaming at me to tell you
Never did, never will, never would be
Lying was never part of me

Save me from hell
Let me get away
Let me just walk away from you
Save ourselves the misery

Chorus:
You’re being
Bounded by your insecurities
Holding on to what was never there
Hanging by a thread

You’re being
Bounded by your fears and worries
Thinking what you thought was true
Hanging by a thread

Obligations
Pulled me through
Now it’s over
I don’t need you

Repeat chorus

insightful

2008-10-15T01:24:00.002+08:00

today's conversation is rather insightful. i realised how little i actually know about a particular someone. lol. then again, i know that person another different scale. but what was said in the convo today made a lot of sense that i actually might believe it.

anyway, work's tiring today. overstretched. lucky i have the next few days off to recuperate & study.

2008-10-12T22:20:00.003+08:00

time really flies.

the truth that i had been denying all these while has been told to 3 pple already. and well, at least we can laugh it off. so... i think things are alright it seems. but as what i said, i'm okay with how things turned out. i think things turned out better now than it would have been if things were different back then.

okay i will not confuse u people more

i just did a bit of wandering around and window shopping. it seems like a deja vu of what happened last year. lol. just that, somewhat different. and i'd agree. shopping for female seems a lot more easier. like, get them something cute and... tadah... haha... last year was a strike of inspiration. but this year, nothing came to mind. so i was wandering around thinking of a gift that would represent the group of us. and well, ji tried to help.... <3

apart from that, i bumped into this guy that i didn't wish to see again. two timing hormonal bastard/jerk. apparently i dated a lot of hormonal jerks. okay, hormonal has 2 meanings, 1) emo/emotionally unstable (i.e. hormonal in the female way, u know PMS?)... 2) horny (too high lvl of testosterone & dopamine & oxytocin clumped together) so yah... he was buying his cymbals at Combo shop while i was transferred to contempo for the day...

and i have this bad headache that hurts my brain, skull, nose, nose bridge....

omg.

2008-10-09T01:29:00.003+08:00

Club For Five is... GOOD! Okay. Good is an understatement. They're actually brilliant. Club For Five is a Finnish A Cappella group (From Finland, for people who seem to don't understand what Finnish means)

Their A Cappella cover of Eurythmics' Sweet Dreams. Eurythmics = Annie Lennox's duo group.

And their chinese is superb. OMG.

Them and their arrangement of Lady Marmalade

And omg. I like this song =)

okay... and i digress a bit:

if this group can go to Disneyland and perform this... i don't see why acappuccino can't go Disneyland and perform. =P

and a good arr of bohemian rhap. i think i have this on mp3... lol

... shocked. stunned. shocked. wtf?

2008-10-07T00:35:00.002+08:00

i just got off the phone with yiling. and i just heard something that. i'm shocked with. although yes, i've heard it before from two other people previously. but i'm shocked that she actually knew. and furthermore, i'm even more shocked that... she actually knew what's been going on. OMG. i'm shocked. she has known right from the start about the little history...

but i felt so guilty... i told her everything that she needed to know regarding me & my history which happened since end J1 til now... so she kindda knew that history. and she actually urged me on to actually get attached. and i'm like. wtf? huh?

oh well... hahaha... but i was just shocked and surprised and shocked and surprised. and did i just repeat myself? LOL.

revelation... :O

2008-10-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

oooo. 2 guys gave me 2 sets of answers which i went.. "O.o interesting" & "what? OMG" at. LOL. wifey already knew what happened. afterall, she made me promise that she'll get first hand info about such things.

but really, the answers were. interesting. very interesting. LOL. oh well...

*snugs pooh bear*

and i'm bored. listening to A-Teens' The ABBA Generation album. Hmm. After hearing the Mamma Mia movie soundtrack, I think A-Teens' album is pretty wtf-ish. I used to like that album. Oh well. ^^

Russell's & Bee Ling's artwork =O

2008-10-05T20:13:00.002+08:00

look at what russell did to my pooh bear... all the stuffings... x_x

and something that seok would like...
this is pretty!
seok would like this too
bee ling's artwork... of me. don't look like hor? oh well...

Randomness...

2008-10-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

Told me you saw fairies
Lighting up your world
Those delusional fantasies
Living in your head

Shutting yourself in your dreams
Writing your life like a story
Yet, it won’t exist
No, it won’t exist

Chorus:

Stop lying to yourself
Stop shutting everyone out
Stop blaming yourself
Let me warn you
Let me warn you
Stop crying like a fool
Stop being everyone’s tool
Stop saying you’re sorry
Let me warn you
Don’t make me hate you

Told me you saw the light
Shining down on you
Leaving behind your sanity
Living in your head

Hugging your teddy bear tight
Feeling as if you’ve died inside
Soon, you won’t exist
Yes, you won’t exist

Repeat chorus

Don’t you feed me those lies
Telling me always, always you’re alright
Hiding behind your laughter and smile
Don’t you feed me those lies
Telling me always, always you’re alright
Hiding behind your laughter and smile
Laughter and smile
Laughter and smile...

Chorus:

Stop lying to yourself
Stop shutting everyone out
Stop blaming yourself
Let me warn you
Let me warn you
Stop crying like a fool
Stop being everyone’s tool
Stop saying you’re sorry
Let me warn you
Don’t make me hate you

Let me warn you
Don’t make me hate you

videos...

2008-10-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

yawns

2008-10-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

M&S fruit gums don't work as anti-depressants anymore. And I think i'm losing my sweet tooth... oh well. =)

another quiz.

2008-10-02T12:56:00.003+08:00

1. Is there someone you wanna date right now?
♥ already dating i guess...?

2. Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
♥ because like that lor.

3. Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
♥ depends

4. Do you like school?
♥ depends

5. Name a quote from the song you are listening to:
♥ you'll always be a part of me, i'm a part of you indefinitely

6. What are you doing right now?
♥ doing quiz and still putting clemson on replay

7. Do you miss your ex girlfriend/boyfriend?
♥ erm. lol. no? why miss when i'm talking to that person every other day?

8. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
♥ erm. atm, yes.

9. Do you have regret(s)?
♥ haha yes. but oh well.

10. What was the reason you last cried?
♥ coz of idiotic pple.

11. What was the last thing you said?
♥ last thing i said? erm. ' "2 pooh bears playing with hunny".. i still think that's cute'

12. What are you doing tonight?
♥ sleep...

13. Do you have a best friend?
♥ no. ofc i have best friendS

14. Whens your birthday?
♥ long long ago. long long ago. and coming soon =)

15. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
♥ lol. yes. funny how the world works

16. What do you think of people who don't have sex before marriage?
♥ no comments

17. Do you own a pair of green pants?
♥ green skirt yes, green pants?? LOL

18. Are you more independent or dependent?
♥ depends lor. i'm dependant on quite a few people

19. Ever had the opposite sex over when no one was home?
♥ er. yes. quite a number of times.

20. Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
♥ yes.

21. What is your favorite fruit?
♥ ooo. fuji apples, mandarin oranges, mangoes, durians, peachies, longans... whoohoo. a lot =) haha. i'm one greedy pig. =P

22. What is the most important thing in any relationship?
♥ ... er. u scroll below. and read the earlier quiz. i'm lazy to retype it la.... hahaha

23. Are you talking to your best friend now?
♥ nope.

24. Does anyone love you?
♥ haha i know there are. and i feel loved. =P

25. What pisses you off the most?
♥ pple who lie to me, but when confronted, goes migrate to egypt and swims in the nile river.

26. Is your best friend good looking?
♥ my best friends are cute =)

27. What are you doing now?
♥ i thought i answered this already? the quiz and still listening to clemson's always be my baby. pfft. i like that song. sue me.

28. Whats the one thing thats getting you through this week?
♥ sleep.

29. Who do you miss?
♥ pooh bear! hahaha. i'm kidding. i miss my girls... i haven't seen them for so long...

30. Do you give out second chances too easily?
♥ yah.

31. What were you doing an hour ago?
♥ sleeping

32. Where is one place you want to visit?
♥ i wana go netherlands, prague, US... a lot of places actually... lol

33. Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
♥ i like hugs! i like hugging my girls, wife & pooh bear =)

34. Ever felt that no one relates to you?
♥ yes.

35. Had plans and broken them?
♥ yes.

36. Done anything illegal?
♥ ho. plentiful.

37. Who do you like?
♥ =)

38. Are you a vegetarian?
♥ .... haha. nope.

39. Are you a tease?
♥ if i want to be. LOL.

40. Who are you jealous of?
♥ no one atm.

41. Are you a lover or hater?
♥ depends on situation lor. haha

quiz quiz...

2008-10-02T12:10:00.002+08:00

1. What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
~ eh. that was quite recent. how about a "mmm. haven't kissed like that for eons?"

2. How did you do on the last test you took?
~ ... that was long long ago. long long ago.

3. What is your ringtone for when people text you?
~ 30s from the bridge (yes, that part with the violin) of Kaze no Machi He from Tsubasa Chronicles.

4. What show did you last watch?
~ Mamma Mia. it's damn good. i wana watch again!

5. Whose arms do you feel the safest in?
~ ooo. good question. i have 2 ppl tt make me feel damn safe atm. 1 = pooh bear 2 = seok

6. What foods make you sick?
~ er. food don't make me sick. i just don't like certain food.

7. Do you get shy around the guy/girl you like?
~ no arh. we know each other very very well, that people think it's scary.

8. Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
~ same like now lor. just perhaps more emo, more frustrated?

9. Do you still have feelings for your ex?
~ can i be very frank and say, only as a friend?

10. Name something you like and hate about your default:
~ huh? default what?

11. Do you have family problems?
~ next.

12. Where are most people in your top from?
~ huh? in my top? *looks under my shirt* i don't see anybody. i only see my boobs. LOL. okay i'm trying to be funny here. er... what the hell? i don't understand the question. if they're asking about my best friends and so. i would say, know them from st marg's and through choir.

13. What was the last meal you ate?
~ i was picking at a plate that has curry chicken and some stuff and prata... didn't really eat that much coz i wasn't very hungry. haha

14. Who are there pictures of in the room you're currently in?
~ oh. i have pictures of the girls, and my classes. i still haven't put up that picture of acappuccino (we need to take more) and of me & seok (we need to take more too, but she camera shy... oh well)

15. Name one thing people think about you that's not true?
~ er. that i'm attached to derrick? O.o that's the only thing i've been hearing and yah, i am NOT attached to him. my wife will kill him first. LOL.... i don't want any bloodshed. later machiam world war 3... =/

16. Do you give special ringtones to certain people?
~ -_- lazy. got special pic though! LOL...

17. What's the weather like outside?
~ hawt hawt hawt. i want rain!

18. Have you ever seen a 3D movie in theaters?
~ no. seok wanted to watch journey to the centre of the earth... but er... house arrest and yada yada so we didn't catch it... but does the Disney's Philharmonic thingy majit at Disneyland count? it's a movie. and it's in a theatre in Disneyland....!!! LOL

19. How was your last relationship?
~ no comments. =) ups and downs la....

20. Where'd you get everything that you're wearing?
~ u expect me to know??? O.o most of the tops i buy = from bossini anyway ^^

21. Do you text with T9 or ABC?
~ abc. =/

22. Have you memorized your social security number?
~ another wtf qn. next.

23. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
~ no. i dreamt about me dying and no one coming to my funeral though.

24. Who was the last person you couldn't keep your mind off of?
~ ooo naughty naughty question. =) i wouldn't tell you. hahahahaha... my wife knows though =)

25. What was the last advice you gave someone?
~ oh. it's something personal to that person. so i cant say.

26. What radio station do you listen to the most?
~ er. i listen to a mix of class95, 98.7, power98

27. Whats your worst grade this quarter?
~ probably U! =D

29. Are you on youtube?
~ yes, and i'm watching clemson's always be my baby (yes, again) it's a gd love song dammit. and i really like the lyrics a lot. lol. really. =)

30. What do you think about the person that last texted you?
~ sms or msn? she's my wife? he's my lover? LOL...

31. How do you like your school?
~ next

32. Why did your last relationship end?
- ooo good question. i've repeated myself so many times til sian liao. next.

33. Are you friends with your last ex?
- trying to be. but apparently not working out coz he hasn't moved on? O.o

34. Are any of your exes on your top friends?
- er. kartono isn't a very very very best friend. he's a good friend. does good friend count as "top friends"? er. guess not? oh well. no then. hahaha.

35. What's the last food you ate that was stale?
- bread, which i toasted. kill bacteria mah... LOL

36. Have you ever been in love?
- i think i am. wait. i know i am.

37. Who will you never forget?
- God, family and my girls & gang.

38. Have you ever questioned your sexuality?
- oooooo. sexuality as in sexual drive? oh ofc ofc. if u wana talk about sexuality preferences, yes, ofc too.

39. What are you afraid of?
- spiders & snakes

40. What do you look for in a relationship?
- accepting each other for who we are, understanding each other & ultimate trust... ofc no lies. and able to be confidants/confidantes to each other...

41. Would you ever consider having a relationship with your best friend?
- why not? i think it's a bonus. i mean you'll have all of the above that i stated. and you would have understood each other very well already to build ur relationship on, rather than trying to understand the person while you're having the relationship. i'm pretty cool with that actually. haha.

42. What piercings do you want to get?
- o.o... er... er... none? *smiles sheepishly* next.

43. Have your friends ever seen you cry?
~ erm. let's see. fiona, derrick, seok, ji & fung all saw me cried before. ^^

44. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
~ last people who SAW me cry was derrick and evangeline. the last person who heard me cry was ji (coz on the phone ma)...

45. Can you do a push-up?
~ can la. im not that useless lor.

46. Are you self conscious about your weight at all?
~ *pokes flab* =D *shrughs*

47. Have you ever had a panic attack?
~ erm. only hyperventilated. hahaha

48. Name the last time you got really anxious.
~ oh. whether IS can make it or not. LOL

49. Would you ever consider moving back to your hometown?
~ er. and my hometown is.....? LOL

50. Describe your laugh?
~ eh. i used to laugh like tigger. now i can't say i laugh like tigger. erm. normal i guess. pple say i giggle not laugh. er... dots.

51. What do you think about the person that last commented you?
~ what u mean by last commented me? O.o erm. last gave me a comment? oh. my wife lor.

52. How did you meet the last person you kissed?
~ how did i meet last person i kissed? don't tell u! *smiles mischievously*

53. Are you currently going out with that person? Why?
~ yes. coz we're somewhat attached? doh?

54. Can you do the Crank Dat dance?
~ wtf is the Crank Dat dance?

55. Who sings the song you last sang?
~ Mariah Carey/David Cook, take a pick. =)

56. Have you ever modeled for anything?
~ I modelled for my own bra and underwear! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... (... nvm. going a bit bonkers)

57. Plans for this weekend?
~ study... work... sleep...

58. How was last weekend?
- interesting

59. Have you ever been to California?
- no. but i wana go.

60. How about New York City?
- no... but i wana go too. *whines* i wana go to broadway....

61. What's your favorite color to wear?
- er..... i duno leh. i think i wear black the most often?

oh wait.

2008-10-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

actually i do have someone to snuggle up to. why am i complaining? oh right. it's just the lack of the right time and right place. yeah. oh well. *shrughs* haha... this just makes things harder for both of us... but yeah... we'll get around it. somewhat. LOL...

nvm for pple who don't understand. you can ask me and i'll explain =D especially for fiona... ask ask, and i will explain to you...

Emotionally detachment.

2008-10-01T19:52:00.002+08:00

Pls ppl, esp to Fiona and the gang, if I so happen to start clamming up. Pls start to slap sense into me again.

I really want to snuggle and curl up to someone and nuzzle and whatever at the moment. Okay, maybe at the moment, it's not just a want. It's probably a need. Just that it might lapse into further physical intimacy. Of which... I hope not. But yah... If u get what i mean. If you don't it's alright. I just kindda miss snuggling (as in real cuddle snuggle and not just hug snuggle) up to people...

Nvm. Ignore. -_-. Tear ducts are not working very well atm. Seem somewhat dysfunctional... Nvm.

5 types of guys to date before getting hitched.

2008-09-30T15:09:00.002+08:00

5 types of guys to date before getting hitched. 1) the good boy 2) the bad boy 3) the older man 4) the boy toy and 5) the overachiever.

i've dated types 1) 2) 3) and 4). where's no. 5? LOL. okay. rather nonsensical atm... trying to not be emo here. but yah. where's the overachiever? O.o *waves and flags for one*

...

2008-09-30T02:54:00.002+08:00

I just feel this sense of.. utmost betrayal. Of being lied to. And that person who lied to me simply has no shame after all. Then again, after hearing so many reminders and ofc, the many alerts they've given me. Especially about the ulterior motives....

Now I realise, perhaps that's all true. But pulling myself away would be freaking difficult it seems... It's just that level of dependancy that I have on that person...

Maybe I'll just go into denial and say, that person didn't lie on purpose? But I mean, with the status between both of us... I don't think it's very right of that person to even keep such things from me? Honesty goes both ways. I don't like dishonest people when I'm honest with them.

That person's more or less trying to kill the friendship between us it seems. I don't know.

Maybe I'm overthinking about it.

But it's sad. I'm sad.

Didn't know things would eventually end up like this... Sad... And to think that this person was someone I thought I could really really rely on....

If you happen to read this, you know who you are. I don't need to go much into details. Those who wana know, you can ask. But that won't mean I'll tell you who it is...

ooo

2008-09-25T13:38:00.001+08:00

TRG + Frida of Abba!

oh well...

2008-09-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

I started off, wanting to blog about something that was intellectual. But in the end, I lost my train of thought so I gave up on writing that post and scraped it.

Today, the ah boy of YMS and I were actually doing this "study" on customers coz we were bored. What sparked it off was because of this absolutely rude customer that wanted to buy a piano book and a piano. So both of us were so turned off by her attitude and so happens that both of us are musicians in our own way, we actually ended up linking that to musicians.

So after that, we actually just observed even more customers, which lead to my realisation of these particular trends.

There are actually 3 kinds of customers...

1)The act smart kind of customers

These customers are the ones that pretend to know everything and try to bullshit through everything and force u to see to their point of view without actually bothering about the circumstances of the workers. We're just the workers, not the management. So don't kpkb with us! =P

2)Parents who aren't into music but their children are

This is one example of certain children who want to attend classes. The children themselves are actually keen upon joining the classes. But yet, the parents refuse to 1) fund for their classes entirely 2) object to them learning the instrument of their choice and interest.

3)Parents who are into music but their children aren't

A lot of cases whereby parents are very keen, but the children see it of a chore. These are the brats that don't appreciate such artistic stuff. Just like my brother and my cousins. Oh well. They really just don't know how to appreciate. For me, it's just.. weird. Coz, I grew up being surrounded by music stuff... That's why perhaps I'm like that...

Oh well. In anycase, enough of such nonsense as well. I'm going off to sleep. Tomorrow doing cashier closing with Tiger... =(

Scrapped Princess - Little Wing

2008-09-10T12:52:00.002+08:00

I like this opening theme song from Scrapped Princess. Read the lyrics... =) Found the english version though. So yeah. Vid's below too so u can listen to it...

Full Vid

New Days! Of the morning beginnings, Let us give our loving world a kiss.

Blowing in the Wind! Just put a little bit of hope and love into our pockets.

I Wish that I can grow some wings right now, spreading them so very far a wide.

Overcome my fears, and fighting from my tears, forgetting the past in my mind!

Oh Yeah! I just have nothing to lose that I once knew.

(Fight at first chance looking for a brand new day!)

Take My Way! Open up my palms now! Try to catch a miracle,too!

I will travel the neverending sky and earth

and then the miracle future that is mine.

And these little wings that I have now grown, Oh!

Surely Surely Surely, Someday! Are going to shine!

Maybe, Somewhere out there right now, there might be an answer waiting.

Going On My Way! Let us search for the truth in the far away wind blowing.

Sometimes, when I feel so discouraged, I just keep on smiling on.

Do not be so weak! Just go out there and seek! Don’t cry now! Just sing a little song.

Oh Yeah! Don’t say that there is nothing you can do.

(Even though someone laughs at you everyday.)

Save My Dream! Even though I’m laughed at, ignore it and try to pull through!

When that day comes, will you pass the clouds?

Yeah! I’m gonna find a way to do so, that is right!

Little wings! Please support all my dreams, Oh!

Going. Going, Going to Keep On! I’m gonna take flight!

New Days! Of the morning beginnings, let us give our loving world a kiss.

Blowing In The Wind! Just put a little bit of hope and love into our pockets.

I will travel the neverending sky and earth

and then the miracle future that is mine.

And these little wings that I have now grown, Oh!

Surely Surely Surely, Someday! Hey!

When that day comes, will you pass the clouds?

Yeah! I’m gonna find a way to do so, that is right!

Little wings! Please support all my dreams, Oh!

Going. Going, Going to Keep On! I’m gonna take flight!

OOOoooo!

2008-09-09T10:47:00.002+08:00

Found out at work yesterday that Mabel's pregnant! =) Yay! Gonna have another mummy at Yamaha... And apparently Feli is leaving next year... O.o Sounds like it. Then yah... Yesterday, Russell (another old-new part timer), Josephine and I were talking about YMS and politics and stuff. Apparently Russell and I agree on a lot of things regarding it. It's the, their politics, better don't bother and get urself involved. Best is be neutral. Even if you don't see eye to it, better don't bother. Oh, and Russell is younger than me btw. O.o I'm like, no longer the youngest there anymore. LOL. Like, finally.

Supposed to go study atm. Soon soon. Just woke up so brain isn't really working. Feel like watching Tsubasa Chronicles again. But nah, it's okay. Let's not. =) Haha...

Oh, and heard from Fong Yong that VA has a new co-teacher in charge. Ex-resonance member... Hmm.

OH... Highlight. I had GREAT fun laughing at the article that Fiona forwarded to me, of which I forwarded to Ji Hyun, Seok & pooh bear too... haha... Even pooh bear's bunk mates were wondering wtf she link those two issue up and they find it ridiculous. For me & Ji, we're just laughing to our hearts' content. Hahaha... Seriously, it's just quite funny. =) Hahaha...

Sex addiction?

2008-09-07T00:08:00.003+08:00

I just realised something. Sex addiction doesn't mean that we are addicted to the act of having sexual intercourse. But in fact, not enjoying anything related to having a sexual intercourse with your sex partner, but "addicted" in other avenues of satisfying our sexual appetite.

For details, read here. It's a CNN report btw.

Omg! Saviour!

2008-09-03T08:46:00.003+08:00

Haha! Yes! I've found my saviour for Econs! Hahaha... This RJ guy rocks! ^^ (I'm a very happy gal atm) Considering that I was the only one in my lil group that took econs (apart from the others who are currently starting to take econs, i.e mf... -_^), it's a lil hard trying to source for notes other than from IJC...

So while i was googling a little for bio's app syllabus' notes, (yes. okay. so it was unintentional. sue me.) i chanced upon this site that this RJ student had. it's an open-sourced site where he uploaded all his notes and stuff. cool cool. very cool. and others can upload on it too. very very cool.

All in all, it's a very resourceful site that undoubtedly, and most likely, would save my ass in econs... (sad statement of which, a student who has an econs lecturer as her dad would have to resort to saying such a thing. it just simply proves my point further that teaching fellow family members is not a useful thing.... they think just because u're related by blood, u understand and know everything that s/he knows. it's sad.)

Oh well. Enough of going slightly hyper on this. Considering that i woke up earlier than usual today, and i'm kindda running on caffeine while studying before i head off for work... Haha...

In anycase, doubt people are actually interested in the site amongst all my friends. Since i'm the only unlucky one who's retaking because 1) grades sucked 2) family refuse to pay for uni fees if i'm not going to NUS/NTU.

So count ur blessings people... Esp those whose family allow them to take private degree/go to SIM... I'm not as blessed and lucky as you guys. Thus going through this crazy exam again. Hope I'll still be able to sustain my sanity and not go berserk like I did earlier on. lol.

K back to studying. 2 1/2 hours more available to study. ^^ yay.

Interesting theory.

2008-09-02T18:49:00.002+08:00

"A lot of people have different brain structures that bypass the limits of race. These are those who I'm targeting. People who have these structures will respon to certain sound waves. That means, including the waves, melody, chords, rhythm and tone. Also, the style of how it's sung. If you string all of these together, the brain waves will cause a resonance with the sound waves. People who have these kind of special structures are.... People who think, "Where ever I am, I'm always lonely by myself." There are currently 3 billion people in the world who are like that. That's all there is to it."

Interesting theory eh?

oooo

2008-09-02T11:02:00.001+08:00

something different for a change. yes still a cappella style. but hey, you don't hear the magic flute overture everyday in a cappella style. =P

Pathology in the Hundred Acre Woods!

2008-08-30T07:27:00.003+08:00

read this

lol!!! i'm just lol-ing at this. yes at 7:30am in the morning. =P

!!! ahh ahh ahh ahh staying alive....!

2008-08-30T06:50:00.003+08:00

ahh ahh ahh ahh staying alive! gambatte pachie gambatte! (running on double shot of coffee now... since i can't sleep, might as well stay awake for the rest of the night + morning after i go to work? lol. soon) pachie don't die pachie!

No inhibitions at all!

2008-08-26T01:23:00.002+08:00

Last night was the first night ever that fiona and i experienced the audience having zilch concert etiquette, or rather zilch esplanade etiquette, in esplanade concert hall. (not sure if it's first for fiona, but definitely the first for me)

1) glowsticks
2) screaming (yes, screaming, exclusive of cheering)
3) standing and jumping and waving and whatever

basically, philhar winds has really gone pop. :S very pop. okay not only pop but rock too. but i must say, their in-house arranger, a Mr Goh JJ (don't know the name...) is brilliant. to the extent i actually like his arrangement of Rihanna's Umbrella (no! not Fanella... sheesh. don't pull that pun on me again... =/...) and well, amongst other songs like Summer of 69 and some other classics like Grasshoppers' Bao Bei Dui Bu Qi, Jacky Cheung's song (which i forgot the title) and I Believe (yes, that My Sassy Girl song). great stuff... there was robbie william's better man and some other stuff also. which ofc, i've forgotten.

in anycase, apart from that, watched dark knight too. and damn, joker's good. too bad that he passed on already.. oh well.

oh. yes.. i want to go for VBC.. and i shall "turn people into paedophiles".... *coughs*... i mean, yes i do find Yamada Ryosuke (aka the 15 yr old boy who acted as Ryuu on Tantei Gakuen Q, or Detective Academy Q) cute...... i found the boys in Libera & All American Boys Chorus cute.... i like babies... but that just means i like children!!! not paedophilic. don't have weird dirty thoughts in my head. they're just cute!!! =P kawaii ne~!!! =)

okay and i'm going off to bed. pretty tired and having a headache.

Plank of Carneades...

2008-08-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

YES! Hooked up inet to my brother's comp after usurping his comp!

Have you all heard of the "plank of Carneades"? It's the situation where by if there was a sinking boat, and there was only 1 plank with person A on it, and yet person B wanted to reach out for that same plank, and A pushed B away in order to save his own life as both would drown if both held onto the plank. In this case, person A wouldn't be charged with murder, as it was to save his own life "at any cost".

As I have changed on my msn nick, if there was a "plank of Carneades", I would be selfish and I would save my own sanity.

I think that's about the end of what I want to say today. Til I can usurp the comp and hook up inet successfully again.

=O

2008-08-15T10:59:00.003+08:00

finally. internet. *withdrawal*

anyway, i was just thinking. what IF, i don't get into university again next year? hmm. =/

1) work and work and save up for my own private uni education.... (LOL?)
2) go take a study loan & apply for some private uni education.... (O.o)
3) see if which rich guy overseas would wana take me in and pay for my uni education... (i'm joking... duh. trying to be nonsensical)
4) go to shatec... (since in anycase, shatec's revamping their syllabus and whatever... so probably i can go to their institute of pastry & baking or whatever... then again, i'll probably suck at it. since i haven't been baking for so long. u see arh. i always say i wana bake, in the end hor... always becoz of $ problem. sianz.)

I was just dreaming about baking last night... making chocolate mousse & chocolate whipped cream using 1) melted baking chocolate, 2) whipping cream & 3) caster sugar.... (don't even know if they're the right ingredients) if they are the right ingredients. perhaps it's a calling. or perhaps, it's a form of enlightenment that, hey i really should go into baking and pastries instead.

don't know. in anycase, going back to bio. it's taking such a long time to finish revision for bio... oh no... but lucky me that i started in aug... and not like last year, only a couple of weeks before A lvls. hohoho.

in anycase, other than bio, i also must finish up chem revision liao. finish chem revision already, then go back to maths & econs... gp wise... also must write essays or do something about the compre already. *forgot how to ans compre questions liao* hahahahahahaha....... and since ms lim placed high hopes on me for gp.... can not gu fu her xin yi... (i think i got the chinese words right in terms of pin yin...)

Progress...

2008-08-11T16:08:00.002+08:00

Mathematics: Finished Functions... *coughs*
Biology: Finished theory for Cellular structure & functions + Biological molecules (now doing the whole chunk on proteins)
Chem: Finished theory + TYS for Stoichio + Atomic structure (+ I.E). Finished theory for Chem bonding
Econs: ............
GP: .... well at least i did some vocab and info collecting *gulps*

OMG. WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING???????????????????????????????????????? I will not count chapters I haven't done. It'll be a total of nearing 50 - 60 chapters... *coughs*

Buck up pachie. Buck up.

! oooo

2008-08-06T23:03:00.003+08:00

Fields of Gold and True Colours came in mail today via int mail... i wonder. but in anycase, ooooo =)

Fiona's stack of notes & papers came in mail yesterday.... Ooooo =D

I'm getting revision packages next week... Oooo.... xD

I crashed choir today.... erm.............. O.o

Got asked a lot of weird questions today.......... =/

Studied GP and Chem today.... ^^ Watched a bit of inuyasha too =D Yay! *coughs*

Will be starting on Bio tomorrow... Hopefully I'll be able to remember... Not to mention I need to start on Econs also....... Been shelving both of them off too long...

Oh. Just took a look at Fields of Gold. AMAGAD. Split so many parts. SSAA True Colours seems manageable.... Haven't read through SATB True Colours though....

Wrote Alto part & Soprano 2 part (maybe i'll write SSAA instead) for Avril Lavigne's Things I'll Never Say out of boredom last night... Doubt pooh bear would let us perform that in contemp section.... *coughs* T_T

Would really love to give a more intellectual post... But my brain's too tired to care much...

hey all

2008-08-05T10:27:00.003+08:00

Sorry, been real busy the past week. Mugging and mugging and endless mugging.

Went to work yesterday, and during break with my colleagues, found out a number of stuff. 1) my pay = $0.50 higher than others per hour. 2) some of my ex-colleagues were erm... fired... 3) that again, i heard nice compliments abt me. so cool isn't it?

About office politics gossips, some of the "gossips" i do agree. But well, apparently I'm a very neutral person in work place... Haha. And I like hanging out with Ashlyn (or is it spelt Ashlynn?) Hmm. She's a fun person. And similarily, she's retaking A levels (H2 Lit, Econs, Maths, H1 Chem), was from SAJC. Fun girl. Another huggy person =D. Now that I don't have my pooh bear, neither do i have my tigger nor eeyoreS (note the plural...) nor piglet.... Guess I need to get another hug buddy.... (not that all of the above mentioned are replaceable. they are NOT replaceable. unique individuals... and i promised pooh bear that there'll never be a replacement for pooh bear... haha...)

Well, life's been great thus far. And again, I'm contemplating going back to Yamaha to work... I don't know... Should I? But the thing is... next year, I don't think Yamaha's schedule would work. Unless I tell Mabel, I want fixed half day off on certain days. =/ How arh...? I duno leh... Hmm...

Oh... I'm starting to be a fan of Serendipity, apart from Clemson Takenote. It's this all-female a cappella group. I think i'm just awe-struck with that Things I'll Never Say video. But then again, maybe it's just that video. Hey, I like that arrangement although it's superspeed....

I'm super hungry. And a hungry man = angry man. I'm rather unhappy and disappointed with people who are IRRESPONSIBLE and LACK OF A SENSE OF ACCOUNTABILITY!!!!!!!!! Wah lao. Blood's boiling... Now everything's stuck liao la. I cannot process my stuff la. I don't know who's contributing. I don't know who's singing. This duno. That duno. Wtf. Then expect me to do everything. KNN. What the hell. Nvm... It's okay. I will not shoot names and bitch. I'm a nice person.

i can't help it

2008-08-01T03:26:00.003+08:00

after hearing this, i NEEDED to post this.... omg... i feel so ashamed spoiling new day.... =(... SSA ver of You Are The New Day... *sighs*

btw, when all the vids for Battle of the Choirs, Australia, are up, I'll watch that... ^^

They sound pretty good. dammit.

Videos

2008-08-01T02:46:00.004+08:00

my fave of the day... although at the end is abt unsync-ed: Libera - Orinoco Flow

oooooooo!!!

2008-07-31T15:52:00.003+08:00

I like this jazz ver of Danny Boy arr Yumiko Matsuoka... Although it seems like the middle/end part seems a bit jazzy. Hmm. and it's SSATB? i think? looking at the vid... and hearing the splits... haha. wonder if we (as in acappuccino) would wana do...? hmm.... nah.. doubt so. xD

LOL!

2008-07-31T02:39:00.002+08:00

picture of the day: although the pooh looks... quite ugly ar... but so funny!!! haha... can't imagine wearing that... although i'm a pooh fan...

pooh bear winnie the pooh bear!

2008-07-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

i miss my pooh bear(s)...

bored

gonna study while the rest enjoy themselves...

oh well... gonna sleep soon... i hope...

tata

Ooooo Bo Yin Ren...

2008-07-28T14:33:00.002+08:00

I happened to watch Bo Yin Ren, you know the show with Mdm Bai, Li Zhu Ren, Yan Dao, Xiao La Ba, Chen MeiGuang-guang-guang-guang-guang... Yeah..

This episode was about Xiao La Ba's insecurities as a DJ.... Coz she realised wherever she went, all her colleagues had fans, and she didn't. They didn't even know her or acknowledge her presence. So she decided to make a change... However, after changing the way she made her sports commentory, her fans called in to demand her to be re-instated, thinking that the radio channel fired her.

So, no matter how small her fan base is, they still supported her.

Lesson to learn, no matter how small your group of friends are, they are there for a reason, because they love you for who you are. Not who you're trying to be.

Precious lesson to learn eh? =)

Another post on Love Languages

2008-07-27T02:24:00.002+08:00

I think I did this before. But I did it again:

1. Physical Touch

You want to give and/or receive affection physically. This may or may not center on sex.

2. Words of Affirmation

You need to hear praise to know you are loved, and you may also prefer to express your affection verbally. Negative comments cut right to the bone. You want to hear that you're loved and how much and why.

3. Acts of Service

You prefer to show your love through favors and chores and doing things for others. You feel put-upon and unappreciated when your efforts are taken for granted.

4. Quality Time

This can be expressed either through those intimate tete-a-tete discussions or via doing things together.

5. Receiving Gifts

Presents and physical tokens of affection move you. It's the fact that someone is thinking about you enough to give you something that moves you. The objects are of secondary importance to the relationship and sentiment with which they were intended.

26th July - The All American Boys Chorus

2008-07-27T00:26:00.004+08:00

Firstly, went to meet Seok at Orchard... Ended up walking through Heeren & Ngee Ann City... At Heeren, Seok's & my eardrums bled from hearing the Teenage Icon 08 hopefuls' singing. If there was spontaneous entry, I think both of us would have been Teenage Icon 08 already. Anyway, Takashimaya was having their 12th Major Toys sales... So guess what I bought??

I bought both the 10" baby pooh (for $8) and the pooh cushion ($2.90). Then Seok and I saw this too...

This pooh bear is 70cm in height and was selling for $40.

Okay. I digress. Basically, today's entry is mostly about the The All-American Boys Chorus, from ofc, US of A, for the benefit of the following people, i) who can't make it, ii) flew kite on me and iii) currently marching left right left right...

The concert was opened by 2 chorus groups from NUS. The first had a female chorus with this male solo singing You Raise Me Up... Well, to put it sarcastically, the goosebumps answered to the call of being raisen up (okay. my sarcasm is bad. I just meant that, it was... sickeningly chilling to the extent of being similar to Teenage Icon '08 hopefuls. okay. that's bad.). The 2nd group did 2 choral choral songs (don't know what are the titles though...). Ofc, had some standard one la. Although, as someone *coughs* said before, "when it's aurally sour, actions become bigger". That applied once again. I duno.

The concert finally FINALLY started off proper. Actually FYI, all the songs are with accompaniment by recorded track (unless stated otherwise). Firstly, they started off with Be Our Guest, from Beauty and the Beast. They sounded so good, harmony was great, blending was superb. Choreography for ginas = damn cute with them bobbing up and down. =) Reminds me of Lumier & Cogsworth with Mrs Potts and Chip. Cute stuff. Brings back old memories of childhood.

After this, was Alexander's Ragtime Band. Which was then followed by On the Sunny Side of the Street. Omg. If you didn't know, I totally love this jazz & big band piece. Then again, it was because I had to learn to play it for my Electone as one of exam pieces. Lol. Totally love the last chord of the song. It was so jazzy it made me go OOOoooooOOOoooOOOooo *shivers in delight* Haha.

Tribute to Duke Ellington, was a mixture of Satin Doll and Take the "A" Train. The latter was another jazz piece, again, touched it because of Electone... And another arrangement which made my spine tingle in excitement because of the jazzy chords.

For "Route 66", Seok said somehow their performance level dipped because there was a lack of energy for this song. Or rather, a dip in energy level. (However, looking back, I still agreed with what I said in reply, that I don't think they like the song very much, as the level of energy was back to normal after this song).

This was then followed by Lida Rose (of which, I can't remember much) as well as A Medley of American Spiruals, which strike much in me...

They then sang Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin. Yes, that Teresa Teng song. Granted that they're all American, their attempt on pronounciation of Chinese isn't that bad. Hey, it actually sounded pretty good. Okay. Pretty good is an understatement. I mean, blending and vocal colour wise, they were superb. Just that... Erm. It's a very ang moh diction la. But... I'm not complaining! =) After that, was America The Beautiful. Followed by the West Side Story medley comprising of Tonight, Somewhere, Maria & America. Lovely!

This was followed by intermission of 20 mins, of which thereafter, we had a change of seats as we were rudely distracted by these group of primary school kids with some yellow top and blue shorts/skirts throughout the first half. So the nice usher agreed to let Seok and I have a change of seats =) Hehe! Nice usher =). (Oh and during this break, we tried going to look for copies of programme booklet, but they were all sold out. But I rmb that I had the brochure that I took back then. So I'm typing the repertoire given on the brochure.. =) )

So post interval & change of seats, they started off with Lovely Appear as well as a change of costume/attire from their red blazer + stickon/button on tie + shirt & pants to the red & white churchy choir robes. I've got this thing for choir robes.... Duno... Ginas look good in them. It's like how I like Libera in their white hoody robes! They look damn cool. =D

Ofc, a choral concert has classical pieces too apart from all the contemporary pieces and stuff. Ave Maria and Laudate Dominum (the Bach & Mozart versions respectively) were performed with both piano and violin accompaniment. Cool stuff. The soloists made me go... Damn. LOL...

He ain't heavy he's my brother, was up next. A slow song, and this was done A Cappella if i'm not wrong. Can't remember... Lovely solos.

Then, they had another costume change... To blue & green hawaiian print shirts with sunglasses & the flower ring thingy majit around their neck. The choreography for The Lion Sleeps Tonight was HILARIOUS. Not to mention, their imitation of the animal sounds were omfg brilliant and cute. Totally loved it. =) Then to the Beach Boys Medley which comprised of "Fun, Fun, Fun", "I Get Around" and "Surfin' USA". And their concept of audience participation was wonderful. They threw 3 huge ass beachballs down for the audience to toss around. It was so cute. When the balls ended up being tossed back on stage, the conductor, Wesley Martin, tossed the balls down again. Cool stuff.

Another disney favourite, Circle of Life was up next. Didn't exactly like the alto solo for this... He was too... heavy. But was pretty well done... *wonders if acappuccino could do a SATTB version of Circle of Life* I still think it's a damn cool song after all these while.

Then they had this song called Frog Kissin'. Then it was the Hank Williams country song, Jambalaya, which was made famous by The Carpenters.. I call it the "Me Oh My Oh" song. If you're really wondering which song is it, it's this...

That "Me Oh My Oh" required participation which the audience was split into 2 groups to clap differently. Good form of audience participation. After that, it was the famous "Home on the Range". It was cute where by there was audience participation again in the form of the Mr Martin turning around to conduct the audience. Don't know if it's because the audience is shy. But apparently only a handfew other than yours truly know the lyrics to the song. Then again, I grew up listening to songs like Home on the Range, Country Roads etc etc... Lol... I really seem to listen to a lot of weird genres as I grow up eh? That's called good music exposure btw, so that i'm not limited to just knowing one genre. Ofc, that does means that I still like listening to oldies more than current "hits" or what i would say "trash". I'm finding songs that are easy on ears now... It's rather difficult I must say. Okay, I will not digress. Next on the repertoire list.

So after Home on the Range, it was more folk songs! Or rather it was a Rivers Medley. Something that I'm very very familiar with. Shenandoah. Yes, Shenandoah. Although, lyrics are different and arrangement is different. It's Shenandoah. And they sound good. Seok was jealous. (Oh did I mention, Seok poohnapped my baby pooh bear earlier on during the concert) Other than Shenandoah, the 2nd half of the medley was Red River Valley. Another childhood song.

Followed by Ghost Riders with 2 soloists. Then Presley's Can't Help Falling in Love. Conductor conducting audience again. At least this time around, u can hear people singing along. It would be weird that only a handful would know this song. Hmm.

Then another Disney song! You've Got a Friend in Me. Yes, that Toy Story, Woody & Buzz Lightyear song. Haha... Then followed by What A Wonderful World, by Louis Armstrong & Kermit the Frog. It's that "I see trees of green... Red roses too" song... Yup..

Then it ends with Roll Out The Barrel and a reprise of America the Beautiful...

Lovely concert. Enjoyed myself tremendously. =) So did Seok...

peace and quiet...? maybe.

2008-07-25T13:04:00.003+08:00

Finally, he's off to NS. LOL! Like after deferring for so long. But funny, before he went, one whole pile of instructions etc. LOL... Sounds as if he's gonna die like tt... Nonsense la he.

Was woken up by several smses by both Derrick and Seok earlier today. So i've been sleeping intervals of 5am - 6+am. 7+am to 9+am. 9+am - 11+am... So tired. Then pple living in the unit above me are renovating. OMG. there goes my sleep too. So now i'm like half sleep typing.

Just got off the phone with Seok. Haha. She was appalled that someone called me heartless. LOL... My initial reaction to it, which i told Derrick, was "I'm not a heartless, I don't appear in KH1. I'm a nobody, I only appear in KH2!!!!"and to which i replied her "I'm not heartless. If I'm heartless, I would be dead already. No wonder you cannot make it as a science student.." LOL...

Okay. I'm mean... Sorry =(

I'm gonna miss my pooh bear. =( My one and only human pooh bear. Okay. That sounds so... er xin. But yah. I only have 1 pooh bear. And I think it's enough... I don't want so many pooh bears and end up having a pooh bear hunny war... O.o... Hard to appease so many pooh bears arh. And u all know how pooh bear is like with hunny... =S

dots...

2008-07-24T18:36:00.004+08:00

-_-' people going off to NS are making as if it sounds like they're gonna die... so nonsensical... anyway, i was youtube-ing! then i found this.....! First part of it is the Joy to the World (with the fishes in deep blue sea one...) the 2nd part of it, is the same arrangement of Seasons of Love that Acappuccino did. Just that we shifted the solo lines so everyone has 1 line, and they edited the solos so that it would sound like the "original" pop version of Seasons of Love on Rent.

When I Fall In Love (I think this is the same arr as the one Acappuccino tried...)

Jason Mraz's I'm Yours

Gospellers's Hitori

denial

2008-07-22T12:27:00.001+08:00

-_-... i'm not in denial... =/ *shakes head and sighs...*

more libera goodness

2008-07-22T02:00:00.002+08:00

Libera - I Will Sing Forever

Libera - All Things Bright and Beautiful (John Rutter, yes, same guy for For the Beauty of the Earth)

"Live" Audio of Libera's Sanctus at Royal Albert Hall, different arrangement, again.

=D

2008-07-22T01:33:00.004+08:00

no worries. everything's fine and peachy now!!

hehe. going to meet wifey for dinner tomorrow. =) and return her her umbrella...

ji hyun & tracie = back in sg... ^^

vienna boys choir = having concert on 19th oct.... i wana go...... *whines* philharmonic winds having concert on 24th aug... *whines* i wana go too!!!

resolved

2008-07-21T18:43:00.002+08:00

don't think the person i was blogging about in the earlier entry would have read my blog anyway. but... yeah

anyway, things are resolved liao... stopped emo-ing... and well... haha... stupid guy was trying so hard to cheer me up anyway... so yeah...

and baby helped too! =) hehe... next time shall take more pictures of baby.. today wanted to take, but didn't. lol. oh well.

going back to my water chestnuts and the water chestnut & sugarcane drink. wheee...

...

2008-07-21T13:43:00.005+08:00

Emo not = angry. Upset not = angry too.

When I said i'm not angry... I'm not angry... I'm just emo and somewhat upset...

Anyway, Seok thinks that he's being overprotective and jealous... Don't see why he would be. She said he labelled me as his mentally & emotionally somehow. Don't see why he would do so.

Although Seok is a very good psychologist, what she said isn't very important to me at the moment. To the extent she really can guess the exact words that he said la.. And with the incident with Baoquan and his "gf"... Yeah... A very good psychologist.

Was just upset with the fact that he sounded like my parents la. They've been drilling the "you are stupid, idiotic, good for nothing" mantra into my head since young. Not to mention now that I didn't get to go into the 3 unis that they want me to get in. It's drilled even more. So I was very upset when he started to sound like my parents by making me sound as if i'm really that stupid...

Anyway, he doesn't really care la i think. He just feels guilty that he caused me to go out to have a walk in the middle of the night lor, coz i ended up upset & emo...

Think I just screwed up the friendship too la. I know i'm making things difficult for him and myself. But at this rate, I don't know la. I'm just very frustrated with myself also. It's annoying.

Laptop died too. Using bro's. I'm reeking of frustration and annoyance.

Braised duck...!

2008-07-20T01:05:00.003+08:00

Love the braised duck that mummy cooked! Utterly yummy. Post dinner conversation was so random. We were talking about having durians next week, and then ended up talking about this vampire killer with his weird antics (mao xiao fang), and how the braised duck turned up so delicious coz mummy was using the same weird antics that caused even the pressure cooker to end up rattling badly (i.e. like how those wooden swords would rattle).

Ofc, post dinner conversation also included drinking of beer & vodka. Okay, that was besides the fact. Conversation wise also included stuff about Jinny & Jolene. Then played a bit of carrom & dai dee too.

(this was written on 19th... just that my laptop died... then didn't publish)

emo...

2008-07-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

emo. emo. emo emo emo.

coz of what reason? i cannot say...

must say i'm one stupid idiotic person who was too optimistic abt tt issue. and that killed my optimism when i heard something i didn't want to hear, though i expected it.

it's nonsense.

warning

2008-07-18T00:57:00.002+08:00

very emo now. just got called a liar for nothing.

1) not telling people things doesn't equate to lying.

2) if i want you to know, i'll tell you. if i don't want you to know, then fuck off and leave me alone.

3) what i do in my own time has NOTHING to do with others unless i tell them about it if i'm happy or unless you're close enough to me

4) if you're not even my close friend, then too bad. what my close friends don't know, u also don't need to know. never announced to my girls what i'm doing today also anyway. so why should HE know???????

whatever. i'm throughly pissed. i'm super tired. i can't take it anymore... PISSED OFF.... VERY VERY PISSED...

Hehehehehe....

2008-07-15T02:45:00.003+08:00

I'm in a state of euphoria.

Many females actually groan or moan and detest the thought of getting their monthly periods. I'm actually celebrating getting them.

As pastor always tells us to tell our neighbours "something good is going to happen to you today".. Something real good really happened to me today.

If you place your faith into God, He'll reward you.. The returns are blessings manifold... Constant prayer and "talks" with "daddy" pulls us closer to Him, and that in us, makes us believe and have even more faith in Him, or so I feel.

But hey, my prayers were answered... Prayers that I've prayed for have been answered... I've prayed over several people, and prayers for them have been answered. This prayer of mine, was answered too. God has been gracious... I would say it's a form of miracle...

This time around, I can actually have faith and believe that I am capable of actually 1) having kids of my own and 2) getting married!!! LOL... yes... i can hear possible wedding bells ringing... HAHAHAHAHA... *going insane*

Okay. enough of such nonsense already. will go back to whatever i'm doing before the red sea's dam burst... LOL

bought the tops...

2008-07-13T19:58:00.003+08:00

the black top, of which seok says is skimpy. hmm. there's a ribbon thingy in the middle... so i can tie it...

the white top which both seok and i eyed... it's a 1 piece stretch top, but with a piece of fabric to give it the illusion tt it's 2 piece.

yes, i have bear bedsheets. and my comforter's red! i know. how unsightly it is to have a red comforter with blue bedsheets. but both have something in common... bears ^^

Listen to the rain... weeping....

2008-07-13T01:48:00.002+08:00

This song will probably be familiar to those i've let them hear before... I think when i first heard it, i was in sec 2? Lifu sent it to me. Lovely song...

It's written by Amy Lee/Haztler (whatever her new last name is spelt as) from Evanescence for her graduation. Yes she was from a choir. =) And once again, lovely song. FMV's from FF9. =)

mood swings...

2008-07-12T02:56:00.006+08:00

mood swings...

very very bad mood swings...

one min i'm happy happy... another min i'm pissed off... then i'm emo... then i'm irritated... and cycles continues with random feelings one after another...

oh and there's a new pooh bear in the collection. it's the one i told people about... $2.90 with eeyore at 7-11. just that i forgot to pass seok her eeyore too...

today's videos are old chinese/cantonese songs from wu xia dramas/movies... u'll prolly find them familiar... haha

vid of the day: shanghai tan a cappella

vid no. 2 is xiao sa zou yi hui

random articles

2008-07-10T13:07:00.002+08:00

Here is an article about the sex life of a woman with her 40 year old husband. It talks about her somewhat "ridiculous" birthday present for her husband. In anycase, in my opinion, sex seems more like a chore in a relationship these days... and holds no more of its sweetness. It's just "orh. okie. sex"... And somehow some people just feel like, they seemed obliged to have sex with their partners rather than enjoying it. That's for people who had been having constant bad sex life. Totally sucks.

Anyway, enough about that.

Here is another article. About men in Wisconsin and necrophilia. Must be the lack of sex happening in their life... That's why they have to resort to having sex with corpse. LOL... Don't know. Just find it weird.

In anycase, was just talking with Seok... She said I'm really blind to not notice a lot of things.... I'm like... I don't sense anything that's different... And she went on saying that her radar's been picking up stronger vibes. (Sorry if I've already lost you here. I'm trying not to write what is the thing about) Yah. So she was saying that I'm pretty blind. And I just went on saying, unless there was enlightenment for the person we both were discussing about.

Oh right, and after chugging 2 bottles of bacardi breezer last night... Don't feel any difference.... Yah... Wanted to use it to revert sleeping hours to normal... But didn't work. LOL

UOB debits!

2008-07-10T01:34:00.004+08:00

It so happens that a friend of mine shows me the web of a hello kitty debit card, and I wanted to see if any place in Singapore offers pooh bear debit cards. So I was googling, and I chanced upon this forum at hardwarezone @ sg.

Here

I'm appalled to find out that all the UOB debit cards will be terminated. Not only that, they're switching the use of the current debit cards to a NOW card which doesn't have NETS function. If all UOB debit cards are to be terminated, why would they then issue Seok Hui a TX debit card, when instead they should have just issue her a NOW debit card?

Seriously, it's just plain nonsensical.

In anycase, had a uto outing today... And only after Rajiv sent me the photos, did i realise (which i failed to, the whole night) that i was wearing the almost the same thing as Derrick. White on inside, blue shirt/top on the outside, with jeans. Anyway, Seok took the photo for us. She joined us, the uto group, for dinner anyway.

I had fun with her DS too. Cooking mama & pokemon dungeon. Pretty cute. =) Oh!!! And I was pikachu. =D Haha... Pikachu ftw =) Charmander ftw too. My characteristics matched Charmander for Blue Team... characteristics matched Pikachu for Explorer. Cool stuff.

Anyway, after two bottles of bacardi breezer, i'm just plain bitchy and emo. Not sleepy. A lot of reasons why I'm bitchy and emo atm.

As I told Derrick, lots of things that I know is impossible and that I should move on, I haven't been able to... And it's a lot of stuff actually. A lot of stuff..

indifference

2008-07-09T03:19:00.001+08:00

kindda stopped caring abt things/people around. no idea why. but well, it kindda feels good to stop caring somehow... although it feels weird...

concerts

2008-07-09T01:28:00.002+08:00

yes, as you people may have heard, i've been going for concerts the past couple of days, firstly, "divos, divas and the pianist" or something like that on thurs... i like this song about the tenor & baritone, how they vie for vocal attention and stuff. it's a cute song =) haha... that really made me & seok laughed pretty much. yes that day i went with seok & derrick. and saw janani... so that was friday

sat went for mus art wind orch's (i.e. fiona's wind orch) concert, i liked some of the movements =D exciting and soothing stuff. although one of the movement kindda remind me of... weird al's one more minute... hmm. went with my parents & ji... oh then went to lau pa sat... ate satay there... with stingray (which... er... sambal chilli not enough arh...) with... er.... can't rmb =) but food is good. although price is overrated... overmarketed prices anyway

sun went for acjc choir concert.. good stuff... a lot to share about. those that have heard me shared, would have known. so i don't wana repeat myself again... =)

not to mention, i've got a pretty bad headache atm... although i had 1 hours' nap earlier... but... yah... head is pounding pounding... pounding... reminds me of that jumanji show... thump thump thump thump thump... *tries/attempts to insert humor*

and i want my felicia blue psp......!!!!!!!! *whines*

Project: Chronicles of Alanelf

2008-07-08T11:19:00.002+08:00

When I have the time, I'll start on (or rather, continue) Project: Chronicles of Alanelf on my blog. It's something for me to write on while I'm bored. So chapter 1 would probably take quite a while... Since I'm actually playing with a couple of ideas and trying to infuse them into PCoA. =)

In anycase, I'm enjoying durian pancakes =) Yes, durian mixed into pancake batter. Hah! Love my mummy.

I'm still feeling so sleepy, after only having a short couple of hours of sleep last night.. In anycase, preparing to go off to work... Yup. Toodles...

Movies!

2008-07-06T02:28:00.005+08:00

I wana watch these movies:

Wanted

Narnia: Caspian

Indiana Jones

Hellboy 2

Journey to the centre of the earth

Mamma Mia

The Dark Knight

The X Files

The Mummy number 4

Hamlet 2

Madagascar 2

HP & Half blood prince

video of the day... =) a cappella ver of Jason Mraz's I'm Yours

second video of the day... =)

third vid of the day... xD

discord..

2008-07-03T03:31:00.002+08:00

some idiot.. tried to sow discord between seok and i. thankfully we know each other better than that.... seriously. even derrick was like wtf...

oh btw.. this is loveeeee!!! i received 3 stacks of pooh bear stickers from derrick + a pack of M&S fruit gums from him too!!! =D and mocha frap (of which i didn't finish because of high sugar content)... =D wheeeee... hahaa

and because of all that excitement and sugar... i'm like super sleepy now... so going to bed... toodles. =D dreaming of pooh bear in pooh bear land! yay!

... depression?

2008-07-02T01:32:00.002+08:00

just happened to watch this episode of charmed where Prue got depressed and wanted to commit suicide because of this darklighter that planted emo thoughts into her head because of her past

so i was just reflecting upon how each of us has a period of time in life whereby we actually lapse into a serious case of depression. or even several periods of time of which we would do that.

i was just thinking of what would cause us to lapse into depression. this is just my thought though, no scientific backgrounds etc.

basically imo, it's emphasis on negativity which is either self inflicted, or emphasis that are piled on by others. or perhaps, it's both working together hand in hand.

one would say, forgive and forget and move on. but in my opinion, some issues or what one has gone through isn't easy to forgive and forget and move on with... it's not that easy. people may wonder and ask why, i would just answer... i have no clue... it's something that you yourself would have to go through, to understand why is it so hard to do so. not that i wish for things to happen to others just to merely get their understanding ofc. it'll be plain evil for me to do so.

all of us have bad memories lurking in our mind... not as if we have some spell to erase those memories entirely. and with bad memory like mine... i doubt that it would happen...

okay. i'm kindda sleepy, so i'll stop sprouting nonsensical nonsense... =D

merci

2008-07-01T14:38:00.003+08:00

yes, merci for thank you. don't read it as mercy as in begging for mercy kindda mercy.

watching charmed. well, yesterday was my last day of work... bought merci for my colleagues... so yeah... they said they'll miss me... haha... and melessa decorated my phone...

so it's blinkish... blink blink...

okay... i think that was hours ago when i started posting.

now it's like 8 hours from when i started posting the entry...

anyway, mabel msged me to work on two separate days for her... which is good lor. that means another 80 bucks or so... in my pocket. haha...

reverting my biological clock back to normal

2008-06-30T02:33:00.004+08:00

okay. i'm attempting to do the above mentioned. perhaps that was why i slept at 9+pm. Only to have myself woken up at 2+am... hmm.

well, probably i need to like... find a way to keep myself sleeping for 8 hours or something.... lol... optimum is 8 hours sleep, no? hmm...

well other than that, nothing much that has been pretty exciting these days. just that earlier at work, it feels good to have people saying that they like to be attended to by me. hahaha. =) that's good stuff... hehehe... and the customer said that she would love to see me around when she comes back for classes... then i was like... erm... but actually tomorrow (i.e today)'s my last day of work... roflmao... then she was rather disappointed to hear that... lol...

but well, mabel asked me to return to work again... but probably on an ad hoc basis, since i did tendered my resignation, as well as, clearly stating in the letter that i want to concentrate on studies... speaking of work... i'm still awaiting my 2nd paycheck.... =D whee. this month's paycheck brings in about $320 + $5.. So that means... Well... let's do some calculation

$320 : $32 to tithe, $40 to mummy ---> remaining $250 (Fixed)
$250: $32 to ACJC tix. $30 to Fiona (I do half payment first can?), $10 to Leslie, $17 for The All American Boys Chorus --> $161 (Concert funding...)
$161: $60 to Yi Ling --> $131 (pay my debt...)

So I'll have a remainder of $136... to tide me over til i get the another $100+.. Of which another $60 goes to Yi Ling... Then my debt is cleared. Roflmao...

Then the remaining $ will go to the... "keep Fanella alive til after december" fund. But again, I must say, it's funny how people with higher pay than me complain of being broke too. =) And considering i only used 5-8% of my largest paycheck... I would say, yeah. I think that I spend on lesser things compared to others. Funny though, that others have other people spending on them too. But then again, when I go out, I spend a minimum or nothing at all, except for transport. lol... unlike others.

Then again, no comments as I laugh my way off the chair at a couple of emails that I received over the past couple of days, which I don't see the need for me to reply. The replies to it are entertaining enough.

Anyway, so far, I only received 1 acknowledgement for the "email that is not for the weak hearted" as i quote from Fiona. Since I sent it to all of IS, 1 out of 3... Well. pretty good la.. =)

Oh right. I'm very very very excited looking at the list of possible repertoire. As much as I would love to say "let's do all", as Ji Hyun once put it, I (or rather, we) belong to a different league. Of which I (we) do surpass the other.... "singers" in IS except for probably Lamb...

Okay... Going back to sleep. Was awake for the past 1 hour, after sleeping for like... 5 hours or so... okay back to sleep. toodles.

Hmm..

2008-06-28T21:53:00.003+08:00

Was watching this last night as Derrick was selecting repertoire for our IS' next concert. I would say, it'll be an interesting selection. =) Not gonna spill anything yet. But yeah, I'm just going to say, it's going to be very very very interesting. ^^

Apart from that, I've been trying to study, and rather plan a timetable, which I haven't been exactly following as of late. Will be planning another one which will start and WILL stick to from the start of July.

And I happened to just finish reading Jeffrey Archer's False Impression after a long delay... It's a good read, although slight details were rather... O.o, such as how the assassin hid bundle of money up her rectum using a condom.... Hmm... =/ Having something stuff up your ass... Wouldn't that feel mighty uncomfortable? Don't know, don't wana know.

Went for the A Cappella Championships yesterday... Well... Paperdolls did quite a good job i must say, compared to the other groups. Just that their performances lack the energy factor.... Hmm... Hope acappuccino looked different on stage... LOL.... As in more active. There were a couple of good songs like "love in the first degree" by Bananarama & "mmmbop" by Hanson, as well as other stuff like Stacie Orrico's "more to life" and Billy Joel/Westlife's "uptown girl" & The Bangles/Atomic Kitten's "eternal flame"... haha...

And I must say, hanson's mmmbop was a very very childhood song... haha...

I'll only post a short excerpt of the lyrics...

You have so many relationships in this life,

But only one or two will last.

You go through all the pain and strife,

Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast.

Oh yeah. And They're gone so fast. yeah

Oh, so hold on to the ones who really care,

In the end they'll be the only ones there.

When you get old and start losing your hair,

Can you tell me who will still care?

Can you tell me who will still care?

And I must say, the hanson trio sound better after their voice broke... And they look good as adults =D hehehe... compare the above video with this one when they're still kids... hehehe

k dun mind me

2008-06-27T13:00:00.002+08:00

k. dun mind me. dun mind the last bit of the last post.

whatever tt was, not impt. haha. just tt i'm still a bit =S la... for getting insulted for nth. but yah. whatever it is...

in anycase, i need to fix my sleeping hours... and it's bad coupling stupid sleeping hours together with bad dreams... which last night's i find it STUPID. but for me to dream about something like that... the person in question whom i dreamt about... made me actually feel upset in a dream!!!!... means something i guess....

duno. hvnt exactly been myself lately... sorry guys... *snuggles and cuddles all*

Randomness

2008-06-27T04:48:00.002+08:00

Was sharing about Mr Shahril with Derrick... So went to google a bit on his group... And found Vox Camerata's site... =) So dropped them an email and said hi! Hahaha... Still think Mr Shahril's a nice guy...

And I did random youtubing... Saw videos on how to make cheese... Some grilled chicken with blood orange and wine...

Then also watched this.... and came to a realisation that Nick Carter was divaing too much to the extent he sticks out and spoils the harmony when BSB does a cappella...

and after watching a set of videos from MEP 2008, i'm thankful that acappuccino CAN sing... and we CAN arrange scores.... =/... my ears bled...

... and i think someone misread a post on derrick's blog... and fired an insult at me.... -_-... either that or i'm really damn sleepy and i misread it. whatever it is. i fired back a comment first before saying anything else. seriously. really sounds as if s/he's insulting me la... basket.... coz i said that that derrick insulted the word 'woman' by using it on the thing. and derrick started one of the posts with that... and the subsequent comments from his friends tt he wrote there refered to the 'woman' as 'her'. so probably that ass thought that i was the one who riled up that whole bitch post... -_-...

so that ass commented something like this on the tagboard: "DY: ''Woman' is insulting? Wow. She must really have an inferiority complex because 'woman' is intrinsic. She must really think lowly of her sex. Sad. Without 'woman' there is no 'human'. Go figure!"

ffs. that was like insulting me la... basket... who else said that it was an insult to the word "woman"???????????????? ONLY I SAID THAT LOR... BLOODY HELL. okay. being awake at 5:15 am in the morning and reading such fucked up stuff isn't helping my temper at the moment. seriously. i DEMAND an apology.

I dun care. since i feel as if i'm the one being insulted here for no rhyme and reason, I DEMAND A FUCKING APOLOGY

i bought new shoes

2008-06-22T14:52:00.004+08:00

bought new shoes... and daddy say i can claim from him when i buy new shoes... so that means 2 more pair of shoes... 1 pair of heels and 1 pair of black shoes (which mummy & Derrick have been bugging me to buy)... =P

yeah. so will buy the shoes... haha... GSS! make use of it... =D haha

Silver shoes (so they aren't white)! With rainbow sides and laces! Nike... (parents want me to get a branded shoe... but i was like... u're just paying for the brand!... but since they dun mind.. ok lor)

rainbow sides!

rainbow laces!!

okay... erm... i'll need to buy black shoes... =P and heels... so feminine... shudders...

ME!

2008-06-20T19:43:00.002+08:00

This is working to boost my esteem =D Hehe.. Love you all who did this =)

57% of people think that Fanella is caring
57% of people agree that Fanella is friendly
52% of people agree that Fanella is loving

meifung:) thinks: independent, organised, helpful, trustworthy, caring, dependable.

CLF did not do this! thinks: caring, giving, sensible, organised, complex, accepting.

seok thinks: sentimental, self-conscious, giving, loving, sympathetic.

huii (: thinks: helpful, mature, caring, warm, trustworthy, friendly.

EriC Song thinks: friendly, reflective, spontaneous, extroverted, helpful.

mbab thinks: helpful, friendly, sentimental, adaptable, relaxed.

Lala thinks: friendly, caring, happy, helpful, warm.

clare thinks: giving, caring, loving, searching, silly.

bliz thinks: friendly, loving, witty, spontaneous, adaptable, cheerful.

tzar thinks: friendly, kind, loving, modest, warm.

Derrick thinks: caring, brave, loving, warm, intelligent, modest.

Desh thinks: knowledgeable, friendly, spontaneous, caring, energetic, loving.

Tracie thinks: loving, searching, cheerful, sentimental, caring, trustworthy.

Dena thinks: spontaneous, sensible, friendly, cheerful, bold, complex.

Fong thinks: introverted, happy, cheerful, loving, energetic.

Rajiv thinks: friendly, helpful, sympathetic, trustworthy, kind, dependable.

pl4sMa thinks: friendly, sentimental, caring, cheerful, happy, kind.

No Eye Deer thinks: accepting, caring, loving, happy, energetic, warm.

tan thinks: idealistic, helpful, friendly, caring, trustworthy, loving.

Pachieness

A Proper Update?

MIA-ed?

disappointment

I've done 84 out of the 132 stupid things.

hi people...

bored

is this what I really wanted?

Happy? Pissed? Happy? Pissed? Oh make up your mind woman!

...

...

Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

exhaustion

pooh drawings rake in moolah!!!

under the sea~ subarashii~

Women~

handwriting analysis...

OMG OMG OMG

...

Embarking on a new journey...

another wishlist

Self indulgence

The Gospellers - Hitori

Oyster boy; clamshell girl?

cute

pachie, pachie the pooh bear!

Don't you bring me down today...

Importance of trust...

lol?

/ignore? ignore? blocked?!?!

^^

Teamwork

woke up, reply, sleep, repeat, study, sleep

insightful

omg.

... shocked. stunned. shocked. wtf?

revelation... :O

Russell's & Bee Ling's artwork =O

Randomness...

videos...

*yawns*

another quiz.

quiz quiz...

oh wait.

Emotionally detachment.

5 types of guys to date before getting hitched.

...

ooo

oh well...

Scrapped Princess - Little Wing

OOOoooo!

Sex addiction?

Omg! Saviour!

Interesting theory.

oooo

Pathology in the Hundred Acre Woods!

!!! ahh ahh ahh ahh staying alive....!

No inhibitions at all!

Plank of Carneades...

=O

Progress...

! oooo

hey all

i can't help it

Videos

oooooooo!!!

LOL!

pooh bear winnie the pooh bear!

Ooooo Bo Yin Ren...

Another post on Love Languages

26th July - The All American Boys Chorus

peace and quiet...? maybe.

dots...

denial

more libera goodness

=D

resolved

...

Braised duck...!

emo...

yawns